She then added, “What I feel is heavy. I can tell that I have put on weight but that is different from feeling heavy. I haven’t done any physical exercise consistently for more than a month in over four years, maybe more”
Ira also opened up about suffering a slipped disc at 19, which in turn restricts her moving and carrying exercises smoothly. “I got a slipped disc at 19 and I am now 23. Today, I turn 23. I am still so far away from where I used to be. I cry in the gym not because I feel fat but because I feel unable to move the way I used to and it really bothers me.”
“I used to jump off the bed when I was a kid, I used to hold the railing and half-cartwheel over it, never just normally get off the bed. And now, I can’t get off a chair. I have to hype myself up, I have to pump myself with adrenaline to convince myself to stand up from a chair. Who thinks about standing up from a chair? I do and it has been bothering me and I have done nothing about it. It’s entirely my fault. I let go so much,” she added.
The young girl also shared consuming junk food by convincing herself that she will burn off the calories, which she doesn’t. “I still, in my head, think that I am a fit person so I eat a bunch of crap, thinking, ‘Oh, I’ll work it off’, but I don’t anymore. And so yes, the added fat and weight has increased and affected my feeling of heaviness. Obviously, it plays a part in it. But I really want to be able to move and use my body the way I used to be able to.”
On her big day, she has made a resolution to take charge of her life and take on a one-month fitness challenge. “4 weeks, 7 days a week, 25 minutes a day. Can I do it? No matter how I’m feeling emotionally. Can I do this for myself? #challenge” wrote Ira with video.